the roller coaster continues....

"But you, Bethlehem Ephrathah, though you are small among the clans of Judah, out of you will come for me one who will be ruler over Israel, whose origins are from of old, from ancient times...He will stand and shepherd his flock in the strength of the Lord, in the majesty of the name of the Lord his God. And they will live securely, for then his greatness will reach to the ends of the earth. And he will be their peace." ~Micah 5:2, 4-5.

These are the verses God laid on my heart this morning. That even though we are going through a difficult time right now, soon we will be celebrating the birth of our Lord, Jesus Christ, and rejoicing in what his birth means for us.

The last few days have been a roller coaster. There was the ER visit on the 29th, and then a couple days of recovery, then jeremy had a few more good days and the throwing up started all over again. It not just 2 steps forward and one back its like 4 steps forward and 3 back. He is currently at sick call trying to figure out why he was getting sick every hour. so help me God if they tell him its a stomach bug i may explode. The doc he saw monday thinks it has something to do with the bacteria in his intestines, maybe a bad one. quite possible after all the trauma to his system. so they are running some labs on that already but he CANT keep throwing up like this. dehydration is not really an option with only 1 kidney.

so i am asking once again for prayers. for healing and strength for jeremy and for patience and understanding for us both. the patience thing is getting harder and harder for us. we are so blessed that the recovery he has made so far has been so amazing, but there is still a long way to go before he is back to his "normal" pre-injury self.  thanks everyone!!!!!!

At the ER

Well things were going so well we decided we needed a visit to the ER to shake things up! Jeremy has been throwing up for the past 3 nights, just as night. But its happened enough that what we first thought was a flu bug is now making him dehydrated. Which is kind of a no-no when you just had a kidney removed! So he is getting fluids, they have drawn labs and done a CT of his abdomen. Thank God for awesome friends, one who has taken the kids and one who may end up going to Syracuse for me to go pick up my dad at the airport.  Agh!

I have been reading my Faith Deployed Again devotional and have really been reminded of a couple things. 1) we can't forget what God has already done for us. Rather than worry about the future and what we are going through today, we have to be faithful and remember just how amazing Gods promises are. 2)
We have a choice to make in whether serving the Lord is our hearts desire.

"But if serving the Lord seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your forefathers served beyond the river, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the Lord" -Joshua 24:15.

Thank you to Joyce, Bettina, and Jessica for this amazing reminder. And a huge thanks to Marie for taking the monkeys off my hands so I can care for Jeremy.

Just talked to doc and everything is coming back good! Which means we get to go home soon. Thinking meds or stomach bug but no blockages or infections! Thank you Lord for answered prayers.

things at home

i am still amazed at how much progress jeremy has made in the last few days since being home. its killing him though that he cant pick up the kids yet. he tried to pick up b today and just didnt have the strength to hold her up. :( took him with us to church last night and this morning. so glad i could finally introduce him to so many of people who have been praying for him and us. tomorrow he is suppose to start his con leave, 2 weeks of NADA! woohoo! he is also scheduled to finally get the last of his stitches out on friday. he is walking better, and has more energy than when i came home a week ago. abs are still sore and doc started him on a new med for the nerve pain/numbness in his right leg. will probably need to increase the dosage (had to start at lowest dose, doc expects to increase) but at least its getting worked on. its seriously amazing HOW far he has come in the last 3.5 weeks.

I want to give a HUGE thanks to everyone who has been praying for his healing and for strength for our family. I can't say thank you enough to our friends and family for their physical, spiritual, and even financial support. God has truley blessed us with amazing people in our lives, even some new ones thanks to this ordeal. We are so very blessed. THANK YOU ALL!

he is home!!!!

thank you God for bringing him home!!!! kids were super excited. i promise to post some pics and stuff later. have some errands to run while he inprocesses at WTU (thats been a fun experience so far let me tell you what), relying on the fact that we KNOW God brought him back here NOW for a reason. and i KNOW there are great things coming. trying to be happy about the small things, like hearing him snore while i sleep, and going to get pumpkins this weekend, and just getting to be a family again. love this soldier!!!!! welcome home baby!!!!

the sun will come out TOMORROW!!!!!

he is scheduled for a flight to ft drum TOMORROW!!!!!! wow! so much to do, so little time! so glad my friends here have been able to help! i could not have survived this without them. so thanks deploymates!! you rock! =D they know i love them dearly. jeremy was again a little sore after a PT session and an OT session but is just very anxious to be coming home. The kids are both very excited. I keep stressing the  fact that daddy cant lift them, or really do more than hug them. no jumping, rough-housing, or climbing of any kind. i know once they see his stomach they will be careful.

so tmrw i need to run to the grocery store, finish disinfecting the house and complete some welcome home signs. thinking about letting friends and family "sign" one. going to post this on FB too, so please leave me a comment below or a comment on the FB post telling me what you want your message to jeremy to say and i will sign them on his welcome home banner for you. local friends feel free to stop by and sign it yourself!!!!! you have until 4pm to do so! =D AND DONT TELL JEREMY!!!!!!!! iwant it to be a surprise! this is gonna be a great but insane day! i am just soooooo thankful that God has provided for us in such amazing ways.

purple heart

Jeremy got his purple heart today! and from the president no less!!!! it was a quick meet-n-greet type thing but still he got pinned (on his KU tshirt!) jeremy said everyone was very nice and i cant wait to see some of the professional pics taken and hear more about what happened. so proud of him!!!!

ok onto his progress. he is def more sore today. big PT session yesterday wiped him out. they changed some of his meds to hopefully curb the anxiety. still looks like he should be home with us in the next couple of days!!! i am so excited!!! there is still tons to do to get ready for his arrival though. with both kids having been sick i have to scrub this house and clorox the crap out of every surface. ugh! i am just glad he is continuing to make tremendous progress. this whole thing has really made us have to evaluate what we want out of life, our marriage, our faith, and i cant wait to see how God is gonna work through us in the coming weeks. its gonna be rough, there is no getting past that. But that doesnt mean it wont be good for us. i love you baby, im so proud of you.

getting back to "normal"

Well at least one of us is back to a "normal" life right now.  I am back in NY and had to take my mom to the airport today. Of course kids are sick and there were bills that needed to be paid and laundry to do.... Thankfully I have awesome neighbors who helped distract me by having the kids play outside all afternoon! Jackson is already passed out! Time to get the sick little princess in bed and try to finish getting things ready for Jeremys arrival. Still dont know when that will be but I havent even unpacked yet!!!!!


Today he seems to be doing pretty well, did stairs in physical therapy which is huge. He just keeps checking things off on the list so that he can get out of there!!!! Also found out that our fav surgeon (and one of the heads of his trauma team) is going to do her couple weeks of admin work so one of the other surgeons will be taking over his care. She has full confidence in him! I'm glad one of us does! lol! I love Dr. Malone! I dont want her to leave. Trusting that the plans that have been put into motion are going to go smoothly and that we are doing what God asks of us right now. We will hopefully have him home to Ft Drum sometime this week. It seems insane!!! I never thought it would be this quick......


On the plus side he got to meet one of the living Medal of Honor reciepients today, the one with the bionic hand that recently got his medal from President Obama. I am simply amazed that Jeremy had the chance to talk to him. Yesterday before I left we had the chance to meet and talk with the commanding general of the 101st airborne division. It was awesome to talk with him and here how he feels about what it takes to make a good unit and how you need good nco's, good squads, good platoons, to make everything click. Can't wait to see what tomorrow holds.

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."

James 1:2-5